I’ve been avoiding you.
Things changed so slow & strangely like an alice-down-a-wonderland-hole that I’ve become secretive.
I’ve never been quietly private before so I didn’t know how to say:
I’ve changed the mode & goal of UA. Maybe you’ve noticed, but probably you haven’t. If you’re anything like me, you’ve got life stuffs to deal with: Sunday family suppers to go to, grandparents to visit, jobs, and siblings getting married, mending to do on the old house, and probably budgets to fret.
Well -I’ve stopped trying to live and breath apparel design, or make it my main focus which was a 24/7 job. Anyone that is in the starving artist business knows its tale…
Letting that go feels like flying, and they don’t tell you that when they’re telling you to shoot for your dreams. They don’t say: It’s heavy, that pack of dream dust. It’s a lot to haul up the mountain of your climb.
So here I am – not sewing daily. Not fretting. Not wondering why I’m not “making it” right this second. And dang it feels fine. I’m not thinking of how I’m going to make it in the future either – and that feels good too.
I have a lot to tell you – so I hope I won’t. It’ll be boring. It’ll be melodramatic, it’ll be sentimental and achey and full of metaphor.
So instead I’ll say:
These last 5 years have been a real trial.
I didn’t know.
Truth be told I still don’t know except that sometimes you have to change everything. Twice. Or maybe three times.
And I’m going to keep sewing & painting. I’ll be around to take a few commissioned pieces. I’ve had a ball working on two fantasy gowns & paintings already this year.
And I’ll still make a few three-or-so-of-a-kind heirloom pieces when I find myself wearing something into the ground that I think you might enjoy.
And forgiving myself for all the things I didn’t know that I didn’t know.
Thank you for your patronage.
Thank you for your kindness.
Thank you for your unabashed spirit and courage.
I’ll see you around.
Until the next time – a little bit of my lately-
My favorite painting commission to date:
A December hike with my favorite gal:
A Yuletide $1000 crane…. that’s a story for another glory…
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