I’m not in the mood to think about gratitudes so maybe I should:
-for a place to be. I know how valuable that is as I watch others not have one.
-friends. I know. I say this all the time. but how do we get by without ’em?
-growing new tools. like quiet. I’m learning to shut the hell up. grateful I can learn that. even a little.
-feeling like I have a backbone made of butterfly wings. feeling like I have a backbone of steel.
-my brother. still calling me – even though there is no way it’s a fun time -talking to me.
-unexpected moments of joy.
-Willow’s Dream & Danielle in specific. Fixing my hair. Making me laugh.
-that all I really need to do – is shine. that some days I can’t do that and it’s ok.
Sometimes I do a spotty solo yoga practice. I always learn a lot. Hint hint self – practice some yoga.
I hear things. Maybe it’s god – whispering thoughts when I’m still enough to listen. Today she said:
She said I’d spent a lifetime Knowing. And now I don’t. Balance. I cried and wallowed about everyone getting hurt by my not knowing. She was compassionate but not yielding. I started to understand how to be sympathetic without being empathetic and that’s a whole other ball of wax for a whole other friday. Lots of lessons. Lots of being quiet coming up. A week of it.
Till next week friends. Do some yoga (that was bossy & it sounded like I knew something. I don’t, so I meant try. Try some yoga.)